Wednesday, March 26, 2014

One Step Forward, Two Steps Back


I’m going to be honest. March has not really been our month. We are fine and we have so much to be thankful for, but this month has just been one of those physically and emotionally exhausting times in life. We were so looking forward to it. Family visits, Levi’s birthday, a precious friend’s wedding, beautiful spring weather – it was going to be delightful. It started off well enough with a few friends and family members coming over to celebrate Levi’s first birthday with us. Justin’s parents even flew down all the way from Michigan for the big event. They sure do love this little guy. We scheduled his party a week early because I was in a wedding in Houston the weekend of his birthday. Boy did that turn out to be a good thing! The party was fun and we were so thankful to celebrate a year of survival our precious boy.

I noticed that next week that Levi wasn’t really acting like himself. And by that I mean, he napped. Every day leading up to his birthday, he napped, in his crib, for at least an hour. You may not think this is a big deal, but you also may not be the sleep deprived mother of a child who gave up naps at birth, give or take a few months. It was a very big deal. And then I realized that he was sick.

We had been planning a fun family day to celebrate our little boy’s birthday. Justin was taking Friday afternoon off and we were going to take Levi on his first trip to the zoo. The forecast was beautiful. Levi was having a great week (remember all the naps?!). I was so on board with having a one year old if this was going to be our new normal. And then Thursday, Levi got sick. And by Thursday night, I was sick. And Levi and I got to spend his birthday-eve throwing up and feeling like death. All. night. long. Friday was miserable and we didn’t make it out of the house, let alone to the zoo. Happy birthday, baby!

Saturday morning we left early in the morning to head to Houston. The wedding was wonderful and we were overjoyed to see our friend so happy. I was so thankful to be a part of such a beautiful weekend. Our behind-the-scenes moments, however, were not so pretty. The logistics of having a sick baby who was refusing to eat and a sick husband (oh yes, did I mention that by this point Justin had caught it too?) made for an interesting couple of days. I needed, and wanted, to be involved in all of the wedding festivities, but also needed, and wanted, to take care of my boys. Since my little one was feeling lousy and was refusing to eat or drink anything except to nurse, he had to stay nearby. But we also didn’t want to get everyone around us sick, especially the happy couple. Considering that I was in the wedding, keeping our distance wasn’t all that easy, but we did out best.

Thankfully, Justin bounced back pretty quickly and was feeling fine by Sunday, the day of the wedding. Overall the weekend went something like this: I would go to brunch, then go and walk circles with an inconsolable baby. We would go to the rehearsal dinner, then head back and clean up a car seat poo-splosion. I would go help decorate and Justin would stay back and clean up baby vomit. Parenthood is glamorous, isn’t it?

Levi being sick, being out of our routine, daylight savings, and goodness knows what else seemed to create the perfect storm to reset our young one to newborn mode. We found ourselves dealing with the same issues that characterized his newborn days. Weight concerns. Refusal to be put down without a meltdown. Crazy clinginess. And sleeping became non-existent. We’re talking up from 11pm-4am kind of nights. Night after night after night.  Did I mention that a couple of new teeth also decided that this would be an ideal time to appear? Yep.

All of this was the week leading up to Levi’s 12 month doctor’s appointment, where we learned that he had not gained any weight since his 9 month appointment, or at least had lost any weight he had gained to the stomach bug. He actually weighed in less than he had 3 months prior. Now I’m no doctor, but I’m pretty sure they are supposed to gain weight at this age. And just when he had finally made it onto the charts, too. Levi now weighs less than my 5 month old nephew and my 7 month old niece. At this rate, his newest cousin is going to catch up to him. What am I doing wrong here, folks?

Alas, our little boy is slowly getting back to normal. Finally. Boy did I miss that smile! He is playing again and acting more and more like himself, he is no longer throwing up every time he tries to eat solid foods, and he is beginning to remember that nights are for sleeping. Kind of…

Our biggest concern right now is that he is still not back to eating as well as we would like. Considering that he has had trouble gaining weight for, well, his entire life and in light of his recent weight check, I’m really not thrilled that he has started refusing at least half of his previously enjoyed foods. We have had enough of a struggle getting him to put on the pounds without the help of this stomach bug and subsequent food pickiness. If this illness has made a permanently picky eater out of my child I’m going to be seriously bummed. We are seeing some progress though, and we are thankful for that.

Yesterday, when we had finally gotten the afternoon’s teething pain under control, I was tickling Levi and made him lose his balance. He fell flat on his face on the hard kitchen floor. Blood. Everywhere. I’m really feeling good about my parenting skills right about now. 

At least he didn’t knock out any of those pearly whites. We’ve worked hard for those things.

Here’s to hoping for a cheerier April!